Sunday, November 9, 2008

Moving

How do I move past this? This is a blinding, incapacitating, horrifying wave of wanting to do nothing.

I tried to push myself today. I did laundry. I scrubbed my bathroom floor. I vacuumed my bedroom. I had planned to make bread, but forgot to buy yeast.

Yes, this is how it is every day. I keep forgetting to do things. I keep floating along hoping that something will happen to knock me into some new place.

Is any of this making any sense or am I just babbling?

2 comments:

Carrie said...

It makes sense but is hard to see someone suffer and not know what to do to help. Thanks for keeping your family and friends afloat of what is it like to go through something we've never experienced. I think I speak for everyone in saying-What can I do to help? I care, I'm praying, and I believe in your ability to push forward. I admire your courage to put on foot in front of the other and your willingness to be open with what you are going through. You can do this!

mrswade said...

I don't think that I can ask for any of you to do more than you have. Some days, I just feel like I'm drowning.